Archive for September 21, 2008

>A mellow broad.

>It is amazing what the addition of one little pill can do to your constitution. I have gone from being an intense and somewhat fanatic woman, to being a very calm and serene one and I find that this state of mind that I am in now, is very agreeable to me and I let myself sink into it as if I am laying in a bed of rose petals.

That does not mean I am only capable of sitting here in a stupor and dreaming my life away. Au contraire, I do get things done, but in a very calm and orderly way, without the least amount of frustration and pain. I feel as though I am cushioned from sharp shocks to my system by a layer of soft bubbly foam and that this insulation is the kindest way for me to stand in the world right now.

I am also sleeping very well. I went to bed a 9 PM last night and slept until 8 AM this morning and I made myself get up, because the Überhund and I both had to take our medications and he had to go for his walk. I could have stayed in bed a few more hours and slept a little longer, which is a real pleasant thing for me to happen.

Although all along I have had a good time, I now feel so good about having a certain amount of tension gone and excitement. If I could grow old this way, I would definitely prefer it to the tough broad variety. I like this mellow broad I am now.

I haven’t taken any photographs yet. I haven’t been any place of interest yet and I want to decide what I want to take photographs off. I may take it to my creative therapy class tomorrow and take photographs of the people there. That’s because I have grown fond of them and want some record of my time there.

I don’t want to take all the obvious photographs of downtown, but I almost don’t see how I won’t, because it will all be a learning process of what makes a good picture and what doesn’t. So, I will probably photograph a lot of standard things before I get to the really good stuff.

My sister is on her single vacation in Greece now. She’ll be gone for a week. Her ex is taking care of the kids and the dog and I am staying well away from there in case I get roped into doing something, which I won’t do. I say the man is a grown up and quite capable of shelling his own beans, as we say here.

I have accidentally taught the Überhund a new trick. When I am in the kitchen, he will very often bark at me from the living room for a treat. So, today I said to him, “If you want a treat, you have to come to me and sit very nicely and let me know what you want.” So, now he comes into the kitchen and sits beside me and barks once and that means, “I want a cookie.” He is too smart for words. His skull is not out of proportionately large to the rest of his body. I assume his brain is of the normal size for a dog.

The Exfactor is changing his style of clothing. he is wearing large hooded sweatshirts and baggy pants with zippers and pockets. It’s a whole new Exfactor. I am watching this development in amusement and can’t wait to see what sort of clothes he is going to wear next. I appreciate him developing a new style of his own, just as I am developing my own style, but I have been working on it for a few years and this one for the Exfactor is new, so it is very interesting. His dress jacket and his dress shoes are still in my closet and I don’t think he is ever going to come and get them.

Isn’t it funny how we influence people in the way they think they ought to dress when we really don’t come right out and say so? Apparently the Exfactor thought I liked jeans and T-shirt and sweaters, so he wore those, when really those were not my first choice. I am glad he is doing what he wants now, although I sense an influence of the Paramount there, but that is okay. There is absolutely no harm in that.

I’ve developed my own style and I don’t know who influences me, if anybody does. I think I just make up my own mind about what I like. I have some sort of vision about what I should look like and I find the clothes to match that. I am very lucky in that a lot of those kinds of clothes are available, the colors and the styles. I think shopping is the ultimate thrill and then wearing the clothess that you bought and trying to match them with as many other clothes and accesories as you have.

I am woman, hear me roar…

The Überhund is making ‘take me for a walk’ noises, so I suppose that’what i will do now. It is that time of day. It is like he can tell time by looking at the clock.

Have a good Sunday, you all.

Ciao…