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The day is drawing to an end. I’m already in my pajamas and my bathrobe and I’ve been drinking decaf for some hours now, so I’m suitable decaffeinated.
I just ate a big bowl of hot oatmeal and it was so good, it warmed my stomach and all my extremities. I feel like I’ve had the ultimate comfort food. I had forgotten that I had oatmeal in the cupboard and ran across it yesterday when I was looking for something soothing to eat. What a lucky find.
I’ve called up about my package and have now been told that it will be here on Tuesday. No explanation really on why it was taking so long and I’ll believe it when I see it. I just helped vote this company into the best on line store of the Netherlands and now they are letting me down. They’ve grown to big for their britches. Isn’t that always the way it goes?
I am being distracted by the television which for a change I have not turned off. There is a silly program on and I don’t recommend typing a post and listening to a silly television program at the same time. No matter how hard you concentrate, you do get distracted.
There, I’ve turned the television off, because I don’t need that kind of interference. I never do understand people who can blog and listen to music at the same time. I need complete silence when I try to write things down. I do like the sound of the clickety click of the keys on the keyboard. It makes me sound industrious.
It was cold today. There wasn’t that much rain, but the wind whipped icy cold around you when you went outside. I want to take the Überhund for longer walks, but it’s not the weather for it and he also chooses the short route. I can’t wait for nice quiet weather that allows you to walk without a scarf bundled around your neck and wishing for a thicker jacket. The wind is always the culprit in the weather, because it makes the temperatures feel colder than they actually are and it seems that the wind is always blowing here. It’s always an important element of the weather.
I’ve lived in the Netherlands for 15 years now and you’d think I’d be used to it by now, but I never get used to the cold of the winter season, and really, it’s not that bad compared to the weather people get in the Midwest or in Canada where there is lots of snow and ice and winters last forever. We have nothing like that here, because we are in a temperate zone, but I sure don’t like the cold and rain that we do get. I’m a springtime sort of person and I can’t wait for April and May when the fun part of the year starts. I shouldn’t complain though, because I know that some of you are still stuck in the snow and are waiting for that to thaw.
My day went well enough for a Saturday, because you all know that I really take the weekends off without the least bit of guilt. I do the minimum housework and let the apartment be as it is and try not to get excited about anything that really needs to happen. I figure those are the working day jobs.
I managed a nap on the sofa and that was very pleasant, but I needed it, because I felt it in my bones. A sudden weariness came over me and I laid down and was asleep within a few minutes. I leave the television on turned down low for company and I sleep right through it and then wake up to some program of which I don’t have the least idea of what it is about. Very often it is a sports program and some team is performing an obscure sport in some part of the world that I’ve never heard of and we are not doing well. Sports programs do have to fill their time with sports, even if there is barely anything to cover.
After a refreshing nap, it is time for a good cup of coffee and some computer time, but first I have to bond with the Überhund who has been taking his nap beside me, while some cat has been laying on top of me. The Überhund lies on his back while I rub his belly and he purrs like a kitten, at least, that’s what it sounds like to me. It’s actually a series of low moans and snorts and sighs, all out of happiness and contentment. Oh, to be a dog and to be that happy.
Firefox opens up six tabs (I don’t know the proper word in English) and I can see if there are any new posts or any new comments to the blogs I follow. They also take me to 6S and Facebook and Blogger dashboard and my own blog. If I’m very bored, I read my own old posts and am amazed at what I’ve written, because I have a bad memory and have forgotten a lot of those things already.
I never let on how bad my memory is. I cover it all up, but I know very often I don’t get my facts straight. One thing I alwas forget is how close I am to someone. It’s like I have to start every relationship over again from scratch every time, while only vaguely being aware of how close I already am to that person. If it weren’t for the other person’s efforts, I would remain a stranger to everybody. That’s a very odd thing, isn’t it? I’ve always thought that it was something autistic in me. I identify with some aspects of autism and have often wondered if I have some of it myself.
After that revelation, I think it’s time for me to go to bed, although I’m not nearly sleepy, but it’s late. I’ll read until I fall asleep. I’ve got a new book called The Road Home by Rose Tremain and I think I’ll start reading it tonight.
It’s turned into a midnight ramble. Have a good sleep, everyone.
Ciao…
Another Splendid Day 