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>Yawning!
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Although I’m sitting here with tears running down my face from all the yawning that I’m doing, I don’t want the evening to end yet, because it is quite early still, so I have made myself a cup of coffee and I’m drinking that to keep myself going for a little while longer, although it’s possible that it’s not going to work at all and that I will be forced to go to bed anyway.
In the meantime I’m helping Gandhi escape from the enthusiasm of Tyke and getting her to jump on the dining table, where I had put a folded up blanket, which Tyke has pulled off and is now in the process of “killing.” It is Jesker’s old blanket, but I have a better one for Gandhi to lie on and we will get the better of Tyke yet. I do have to pick sides and Gandhi needs more help. Tyke is quite capable of looking after himself.
I was rudely interrupted while writing this by many emails that needed answering, and as usual I took my time doing that, so now it’s much later and I’ve gotten my second wind. I’m suddenly awake again and ready for an intellectual challenge. I don’t know if that includes writing this post, but I guess I can make it as challenging for myself as I want. Notwithstanding the fact that I’m typing this without the spell check and I can’t use any really difficult words, because I would have to look them up in the dictionary and that would stop the natural flow of words.
I do try to write as quickly as the sentences enter my head and sometimes I’m on a roll, although I do have periods of non-activity when nothing comes and I’m distracted. I’ve been that way my whole life and it caused me some trouble in primary school when I was distracted a lot, in other words, I day dreamed and I still have the tendency to do that now. I call it constructive day dreaming, because I think of things that matter and come up with solutions to odd little problems I’m faced with. It seems that being occupied in one activity stimulates my brain to be active in other areas as well. I suppose I am a multiple use appliance, handy to have around the house.
I did my taxes this afternoon on line and it turned out to be quite painless, because part of the information was already filled in and what I had to fill in was very simple and each question that I had to answer came with an explanation so I would understand the question and if it applied to me. Luckily, my financial situation is very simple and clear cut. There were no complications. It’s probably the easiest tax form that I ever filled out, because I was unmarried for all of last year. I’m going to remember how simple this was, so I won’t procrastinate next year.
I had Iron Nora do the taxes, she’s much more capable than I am and not the least bit intimidated. That woman is handy to have around and my blogging friend Babaloo reminded me to pull her out of the closet for jobs like this that are tougher than the ordinary daily tasks that I’m normally faced with, but I think I can pull her out of the closet whenever I get timid. I’m regularly intimidated by something and I can use a tough woman at moments like that. Especially now that I’m wearing cowboy boots that strengthen my image a great deal.
I have been wearing my brown leather jacket for warmth, but the weather is getting better now and I think I can start wearing my black leather jacket with the zippers and the buttons, which is very cool. It was the first leather jacket I bought and I felt like quite a hip chick when I wore it out of the store. I can wear my green scarf with it, which is an upgrade from the blue and black scarf I’ve been wearing with my brown leather jacket and that used to belong to my mother, so it is very old and it also needs to go into the laundry. The black leather jacket is best worn open, but it’s not quite warm enough for that yet, although tomorrow it’s going to be an incredible 17 degrees Celsius. That’s practically balmy and real spring weather. I can hardly believe my eyes reading that forecast. I’ll wear my jacket open with my green scarf around my neck.
I had three chores to do today and I did them all, except that I didn’t quite finish the last one and then, as it got later in the day, I excused myself from that one and will add it to the chores I will have to do tomorrow. I will have to do three of them tomorrow and maybe four if I’m really gutsy and honest. I don’t write them down, as I know exactly what they are and I don’t forget them. They are lasered into my brain. Three chores aren’t that many to remember. Carrying them out is, because I reach a certain time of the day when I excuse myself from doing work and I only get to play, as if I have a regular paid job.
Actually, my excuse is that I try to keep the stress out of my life, but I think I should test that theory and see if it still applies. If I start doing more than three chores, I will have to start making lists or make the stuff up as I go along. There are always things to do here. I will have must do and can do chores and do the must do chores first. I will have to forego some time on the computer, because it distracts me hugely and is always beckoning me to turn it on.
I reinstalled Windows Vista the other day, because it was acting funny, and as a result I got more space on my hard disk and it also kept all the things I had installed and downloaded myself, even though it said it would put those things separately on the hard disk. I did a complete reinstallment, not an upgrade. I thought it was wonderful and apparently it got rid of some unnecessary junk. Windows Vista is okay, but very often it is murmuring to itself, doing unknown things on line that aren’t apparent and it has many updates. I don’t know why such a big deal was made out of it. The email program is good, but it should be. Would you expect anything less?
It’s late now and I should go to bed, but I’m enjoying myself here. I’ll run out of things to do, though, and be forced to close shop. I’ll go put the clean sheets on the bed. That was the part of the third job that I had not finished. I want to sleep in a clean, good smelling bed tonight. That will be a treat to me.
Goodnight, dear all. I’ll see you all tomorrow, very late in the morning.
Ciao,
Nora
>After a long night.
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You all know that I was short of sleep after yesterday’s very early morning rising and no nap during the day, which is sort of miraculous for me, because I used to be famous for my naps. So, having lasted all day long on too little sleep, I was worn out by the early evening and I went to bed at eight o’clock and slept until 8 o’clock this morning. I want to say uninterrupted, but I did have to get up to go to the bathroom and another time to let Tyke out who started to bark by the bedroom door. I figured we couldn’t have that, waking up the neighbors, so I released him, but he was back in the bedroom when I woke up this morning and hadn’t gotten into anything while he was out. He probably just wanted to pester Gandhi.
So, I slept twelve hours and it took me an hour to really get my head together after I woke up. I realized I hadn’t taken my medicines when I had been up for an hour and had finished my cup of coffee. It used to be the first thing I did at 7 o’clock in the morning, because I was already awake then. There’s no chance of that happening now.
I also only drink three cups of coffee a day now. I have one in the morning, as opposed to the three I would have to get me functioning at a high enough level. I suppose I needed the caffeine to feel good. I was artificially altering my mood to a better one. I think I drink the morning cup of coffee out of habit now, I wonder if I really need it to get at any sort of level. A cup of tea might do the job too. Anyway. I don’t have another cup of coffee until the afternoon, when I want one for the taste of it, because I do like a Senseo cup of coffee, but I’m very quickly satisfied and hardly ever finish it. Then I have another cup in the early evening for a little bit of a pick me up, but I never completely finish that one either. I think I don’t need the coffee to alter my mood all the time. The medication is working to the point that it makes me feel good at a steady rate all day long and that is one of the things that I noticed very quickly. I’m taking Welbutrin, that also gets sold as Zyban that is used to help people quit smoking. It helps me stop eating.
I’ve taken Tyke for a walk and it is a different experience than taking Jesker for a walk. Tyke is full of life and very alert and curious. He notices everything around him and wants to investigate all. He picks up three different kinds of scents and wants to follow all of them. His nose is constantly to the ground, just like Jesker’s was also. They have that in common. Tyke is also very busy marking his territory and kicking up dirt with his hind legs when he’s done something on a bit of grass. I guess the biggest difference is that he notices noises from far away. Jesker was almost deaf and didn’t really hear anything anymore, but Tyke picks up all the noise that goes on around us and stops and listens and tries to locate where it comes from. He’s a clever little guy.
I’m sure Gandhi would disagree with me, as she constantly has to find her refuge on the dining table. She does get very tired of him and literally attacks him, which he thinks is playful behavior. She has her claws and teeth in his head, but he has such thick, curly hair, that he doesn’t feel anything and thinks it’s all a joke. They clearly miscommunicate. When she wags her tail, he thinks it means the same thing as when he wags his tail. He just totally adores her and thinks she’s there for him to play with all day long just like another little puppy. I should get a little kitten for him to play with, except that I don’t want more cats because of the neighbors. It would be a solution, though.
I hope this isn’t going to be one of my hypomanic ideas in bringing happiness to my dog. I can just see it turn into one of those schemes that’s going to end up badly and I will not have thought it through properly, but act on an impulse. The writing is on the wall. I will figure out a way to get a kitten and that will be the beginning of all my troubles. I have just warned myself while I am still of sound mind. There’s already a devil sitting on my shoulder arguing with me. Maybe that was the little absence I just had. A change of mood.
I must go walk the dog again. I feel I need the exercise. After that I will attempt to do my income taxes. I do have to get serious about that and not be such a ninny. I have until April the first, but I don’t want to postpone it until the last minute. I’m afraid I’ll lose the letter reminding me to do so. I do fear the tax offices and the penalties I may get. I’m an obedient citizen. Just not a very eager one. I do procrastinate when given the chance and only do the things that give me pleasure. Sometimes there’s so very little of that, that it must be taken advantage of. I’m ready for an overdose now.
Have a splendid day, everyone. I must rouse my dog and put him on his leash for a brisk walk.
Ciao,
Nora
>A brand new day.
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I’m just finishing my first cup of coffee and trying to properly wake up. I’m convincing myself that I am awake enough to write this post, that I have to in order to get my mind functioning well. I am sure there is some truth to that. I was so befuddled when I woke up, that I thought I would never think straight again. Instead of thinking that this was a mood, though, I realized that it was a temporary condition that would wear off as I woke up more and got my mind together, and that all the things I was worrying about would disappear as soon as I was released from my temporary state of mind. I have to have faith in myself and sometimes I am mighty short of that.
So, I’m not going to take anything too seriously right now and just let things be and not pay too much attention to them. I’ll have another look at them in an hour or so when I have settled down more. In the meantime I can have another cup of coffee and enjoy the quietness of the morning, because Tyke is asleep by my feet and the cats are otherwise occupied.
Several times during the night Tyke climbed on top of me and licked my face and settled down to sleep there. He is quite heavy when you have him lying on your chest, but I didn’t want to move him, because I found it very endearing. I just had to remember to breathe, but I did go back to sleep each time. In between those episodes, there were cats lying on top of me, but they were much lighter, I hardly noticed them. I am glad that I am so popular with the animals, at least as an object to lie down on. They probably love me too, but have an awkward way of showing it sometimes.
I tried to sleep in my bed last night, but for Tyke it was just an opportunity to explore the bedroom and get into all the things I had not thought of moving up higher on the bookcases. Every time I got up and moved the next thing, he found something else that was equally interesting. I finally gave up and moved to the sofa. Today I will have to move things in the bedroom and make it full proof so that there’s nothing left for him to get into. He’s surprisingly innovative, though, and can get to things that I think are impossible to get to. Well, I never did say that I wanted a dull dog, did I?
He’s supposed to be eating his breakfast now, but is continually distracted by the world around him and, because I’m not sitting there with him, it’s going to take him forever to finish what’s in his bowl. I don’t feel like sitting there with him until he’s done. I think he needs to be able to eat on his own. Right now what motivates him is the chance that a cat may try to eat from his bowl, especially Toby. He minds it less if Gandhi does it, but it still will get him to eat… Well, I just gave in and sat with him and got him to eat some more, but I put the rest back in the bag, because he was not interested. He does have to know that there’s a limited time he can eat in. He ate about half of it. Maybe that was enough.
Today is his birthday. He is one year old. Too bad he wouldn’t know why he got a cupcake with a candle on it. To him it’s just a day like any other day and I can’t sing ‘Happy Birthday’ to him, because he won’t have a clue.
All this talk about Tyke would have you think that he’s somebody important in my life. I guess you would be right, because things do revolve around him right now. He’s such a little ball of life and busyness that it’s hard to ignore him.
The Exfactor is supposed to come by today and that will be very nice, as I’m out of supplies and I need someone to do groceries for me. My sister is working this week and is leaving for Italy for a week on Saturday, so I’m on my own. This is one of the reasons why I’m so nervous. I have some administrative work to take care of also and I’m not looking forward to it. It has to do with taxes and who ever liked taking care of that? It gives me a stomachache just thinking about it. I find it very difficult to take care of these things and can’t bear the responsibility. I find it hard enough to take care of the day to day living. I really need someone beside me to take care of these things. Sometimes it’s very difficult to be single.
Well, I suppose I’m wide awake now, so there’s no more dawdling to be done. I must get the show on the road. I will look at my paperwork first.
Have a good stress free day. May all the Gods be kind to you.
Ciao,
Nora
>In the long run…
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Late yesterday afternoon, Tyke and I went for a longer walk, because many of you agreed that he needed more exercise than he was getting on his little short walks with Jesker and I couldn’t agree more. We left at about 4 o’clock and as it gets dark at 6, I figured we had enough time to wander around the neighborhood and pick the best route to follow. He thought it was great and couldn’t move quickly enough from one interesting spot to the next, That meant moving from hedge to hedge and from tree to tree and from one blade of grass to the next. He set the pace and it was fast. He was just not quite pulling my arm out of my socket.
Unfortunately, I had misjudged the weather and wore my warm sweater under my winter coat and after a while I was very hot. It was much warmer outside than I had anticipated. I was also wearing the wrong boots and had sore feet about halfway through the walk. So I lasted 50 minutes and had to call it quits. Tyke easily could have walked another hour or two. Also, my condition isn’t what it used to be. I have gotten used to the relatively short and easy rambles with Jesker and they are nothing compared to a long walk with Tyke.
Today I’m going again, but I’m not going to wear my warm sweater and I’m going to wear my hiking boots in the hope that I will last a little bit longer. I’m going to try and make two longer walks, but it depends on how much sleep I need and how much time that leaves me. I’m up in the middle of the night now after sleeping a few hours. No doubt I will go back to sleep later, but I may be up on time for a morning walk with him that’s a bit longer.
Jesker gets exhausted moving from room to room, so I’m not going to bother taking him for walks anymore, as they seem to wear him out too much anyway. I will let him do his business out back and just take Tyke for walks and make them longer ones, because there is no sense in making these tiny little walks with the three of us. They don’t do any of us any good, least of all Jesker.
I’m worried about Jesker and I don’t think he is going to hang on much longer. I guess what I’m really saying is, that soon I will be faced with the difficult decision that I have to make and that is so hard. But I hear his breathing as he is lying here beside me and it is short and shallow, as if it requires effort. I want him to hang in there a while longer, but really I want to postpone the decision until there is no other choice. Until it is the only obvious thing to do, but I don’t want him to needlessly suffer either. It is tough. I’ve had to had cats put to sleep and I felt bad enough about that. This, however, is my companion and my friend. He’s more than just a dog.
I’ve turned the thermostat down one degree so the heater won’t keep going on and it does make a difference, but I imagine that I’m much colder now, while one degree should not matter all that much. A cup of hot coffee sure tastes good then. I think I’m going to get my end of year bill in June, because that’s when I became a customer of this energy company and I will find out how much extra I will have to pay on top of the monthly payments that I have been making. They’ve calculated me for a one person household, but the winter has been cold, so I may have used more gas than was predicted. I’ve also used the computer a lot, so I may have used more electricity, in spite of my energy saving light bulbs and the fact that I hardly watch TV. So it’s all going to be a big surprise.
I just got two blue envelopes in the mail from the tax office and I thought that maybe they wanted more money from me because of the end of the year calculations, but luckily zero Euros were due. It’s such a relief when the tax people let you know that you don’t owe them anything else. It would be like plucking a naked chicken. There’s no more to go around and they ought to know best. You never know when you get a blue envelope in the mail. It can be good news or bad news. This time it was semi-good news. It would have been better if they had owed me money. That would have been my lucky day.
It’s only going to be 3C today and cloudy. We’ve had such nice weather these past couple of days, that you could almost imagine spring had arrived. Alas, it was of short duration. Next week we’re going to have wintertime again with freezing temperatures and more snow, believe it or not. Such rotten luck! I do hate that and I sincerely hope that’s the last of it, but that’s what I hoped the other week too. Drats! In the north of the country they haven’t been without snow for at least 7 weeks, so that’s much worse. Thank goodness we’re spared that.
Both the dogs are amicably sleeping at my feet as if they’ve never done anything else. There’s room for both of them. Sometimes Tyke snores. It’s very funny to hear such a little dog snore. Every time I get up to go to the kitchen, he follows me in the hope that something exciting will happen and I have to disappoint him every time. It’s not nearly time for him to eat, but he does gobble down his food when he gets it. He acts like a starving person who hasn’t had anything to eat for days or weeks. It’s gone in no time. Jesker is not the least bit interested in eating.
Well, I’ll go and read blogs. I’m behind in that and now is a good time to catch up.
I hope you all have a wonderful day when you get up.
Ciao…
>Sunday in the wee hours.
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I went to bed at 7 pm last night. I was so tired and basically all I had done all day was sit behind the computer, but I suppose that can wear you out also. I read my book for just a little while and then went to sleep and slept for eight hours, which I think is pretty darn good. I was surprised when I looked at the alarm clock and saw what time it was when I woke up. Of course, it is still early in the morning, but that just leaves me a lot of time to sit here behind the computer and have wonderful cups of coffee and cigarettes and do as I please until the day really starts. By that I mean, when the sun comes up and I have to get dressed and walk the dog and do a serious task instead of just sitting here enjoying myself.
It is only -7C outside, so not as cold as it was the night before last. Cold enough for the heater to go on every once in awhile, so it is nice and pleasant in the apartment. I have some lights on so I don’t sit here in the dark too much, I mean not only with the desk lamp on, and it is very cozy. It makes me feel safe and comfortable, as if all is well with the world for right now. You do have to get your small moments of joy out of the day as much as possible and you have to find them in the little things that are very near and dear to you, such as being in your own safe and quiet space with the lights on and the cold and dark world outside. It makes you appreciate being warm and comfortable very much.
The dog is always where I am. Every once in a while he goes and finds a more comfortable place to lie down, but he always returns here to lie beside me on the rug, as if he is attached to me by an invisible cord that is unbreakable. I find such loyalty very endearing and I always find myself looking at him sleep and being so taken with that. A dog is such an innocent animal and so totally dependent on you. I always have to be steadfast and true to him, so as to not confuse him and to always make him feel secure and make his life predictable. Sometimes he gives me that look as if to say, “Is everything okay? Yes? Alright then!” Then he continues to do whatever he was doing. He assumes he is safe and safe he is, especially now that he is as good as deaf and doesn’t see well. He gets treated with extra special care.
I have a good camera, but I sure do forget to use it a lot. I don’t think I have even photographed my last two paintings. I must remember to do that and show those on my art blog. I always have my camera in my purse, but then forget all about it. I am not an opportunity photographer. I don’t walk around the world seeing good shots. I would only do that if I had my camera in my hand and consciously thought about it. It is really a shame, because I’m probably missing all sorts of photo opportunities. Then again, maybe photography doesn’t come to me naturally, or I would do it more instinctively. I think some people have a real gift for it and see the world the way you would see it through the lens of a camera constantly. Every once in a while I see a scene that I think would make a good photograph, but then I forget that I have my camera right in my purse and that I can take a photo right then and there. I suppose I haven’t developed the freedom to do that and the instincts to go with it. I’m too inhibited. I guess if I have to make a resolution for the New Year, it is to use my camera more often, although I’m not a great believer in resolutions, because very often they are false promises you make to yourself. It is my intention to use my camera more often, let’s put it that way. If I actually do it is something we will have to wait and see about.
It’s the same way with doing art. I haven’t done any at home for quite awhile. Now, I know why this is. I’m missing some essential ingredients to make the things I want to make, but still, that’s only partly an excuse. I can’t seem to get into art making at home the way I do at therapy. Of course, I don’t have the right place to do it, except for the dining table where I always have to clean everything up immediately or else the cats will walk all over it. I have to get a table and a good lamp to put in my bedroom and get the other ingredients that I need to be able to make the art I want to create. If I was really interested, I would be getting this done, but it is like so many other things. I postpone it indefinitely, as if it is going to happen by itself some day magically, forgetting that I have to be the moving force behind it. I think I’m waiting for that spark of inspiration and interest to hit me. The one that will set me on fire a little bit. The one that makes me manic, without actually becoming fully manic.
So, you see I’m not living up to my potential in many ways and that is because of my very low energy level. Because I spend more time sitting and getting nothing much accomplished than I do moving about and being engaged in something. I have a big mental block that I can’t get past. It’s like a huge boulder on the road and I can’t get around it, so I idle my time away in front of it. Every day I tell myself that this is the day that it’s going to be different, and every day is a repeat of the day before and I achieve hardly anything. A depressed mind is a terrible thing to carry around with you. It is heavy and burdensome and nothing but a frustrating load to bear.
But now I must be cheerful, because it’s still early in the morning and nothing can touch me yet. I can make myself another cup of coffee and wile away my time a little bit longer. Of course. I have to remember that it’s Sunday and a day of rest and that not much bad can happen to you on a Sunday. It’s everybody’s day off. Even the tax office, whose blue envelope I have lying unopened on the coffee table and which I will open today. A blue envelope is never any good. That’s why it’s colored blue, so you won’t miss it in the mail and say you didn’t get it. I’m not going to worry about it. Whatever bad news is in there, I will deal with. They are not the evil stepmother and I am not a helpless Snow White. There is no Prince Charming in this story.
It would be ever so nice if there were a Fairy Cleaning Crew that would come and Micro Clean the apartment. I have a feeling that if it were clean once and for all, I would be able to keep it clean, but maybe that is a delusion. It is nice to believe in fairy tales, though. Maybe I need some wicked step sisters to put to work while I go to the ball. Oh no, that would be too much work. I would have to get all jazzed up in my finest and wear high heels and a low cut dress. I don’t think so in this weather. Not unless I got to wear a fake fur coat that was especially warm.
Well, I guess that’s about it for me for this morning. I hope I’ve kept you pleasantly entertained. I’ve kept myself entertained, that’s for sure. It made the time pass quickly and I still can do all sorts of things.
I hope you all have a good morning and the best of days, this Sunday before Christmas.
Ciao,
Nora
>In my pajamas.
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It was already past 1 pm and I was sitting here in my pajamas reading blogs and drinking glasses of multi vitamin juice, being a woman of leisure with nothing better to do but smoke numerous cigarettes and leave astute comments behind, when finally Jesker decided that he had digested his food well enough and that it was time to go out and do his business and leave his mark on the various bushes and lamp posts in the neighborhood.
This meant I had to get dressed and get my unruly, ‘sticking up all over the place hair’ in order. I did this by rubbing a damp washcloth over it and that worked just fine and I ended up with exactly the right hairdo so, as they say, you learn something new every day. Now I have washcloth hair that you apply hairspray to and that is extremely fashionable and wouldn’t look out of place on the catwalk. I just need the body to go with it, but in my upbeat mind, I already have it and can’t be persuaded to think anything else, so I act like I do.
Honestly, I have such a high opinion of myself, that I regularly need to be scraped off the ceiling and when I go outside, I should be weighed down by a ball and chain or I would escape gravity. Just now Jesker served that purpose. At the moment, I don’t have a humble bone in my body and they are all light as air.
It can’t be the weather that is making me feel this way, because we started the day off with showers, some of them pretty hefty. Jesker didn’t even want to go out back in them and did a piddle on a weed that was growing in a crack by the wall of the apartment just outside the door. He has no sense of decorum whatsoever. Maybe it will kill the weed and I won’t have to pull it out, but it’s a pretty tall one and well established.
That goes to show you how much I let nature take its course out back. All growing things go their own way. I have some very pretty flowering weeds in the flowerbeds that I refuse to pull out. The flowers are dainty and pink and it looks like someone planted them there. Nothing can kill them, because Jesker piddles on them too. Besides, who am I to look a gift horse in the mouth. We walk in nature to see these things grow in their natural habitat.
I’m wearing a sun dress with a short cardigan over it and leggings and my boots that I like the best. The shrinkage of my stomach encourages me to try on some different clothes and to walk prouder. I imagine everyone can see that there are 6 kilos missing, but that may be my own assumption.
I assume a lot nowadays. Like knowing what’s best for the world and how to solve all of its problems. I’d have firing squads for all corrupt government officials all over the world. Especially those leading African countries and I would put women in charge there and imprison any man who would try to rise to the political top. God, I would be a despot.
I suppose I feel like a despot right now in the sense that I think I’m always right and that I can’t give a wrong answer to a problem. A sort of omnipotence has entered my being. I feel like a small god, small being very relative, of course. Small in the sense of the universe, but not in the sense of the human scale. Maybe I have ‘world leader madness’ and you are supposed to have this when you have high political ambitions. Maybe Obama has it and maybe even the Pope.
But look at me, I’m not even a big fish in a little pond, although secretly I think differently and I think I am God’s gift to the world. A well hidden treasure like the Grail and some day my true purpose will be revealed. All mad people must have a special destiny, don’t you think? They are the oracles for their generation. Maybe they are the prophets. I better start to speak very sagely now and in parables.
I have to keep my wits about me in this hypomanic mood and not get derailed. I am going to try and be a good observer of myself and see how I handle various situations and various people. Contrary to what I thought in the past, that a hypomanic mood had to be suppressed as quickly as possible, I’m allowing myself to have this one and to learn from it what I can.
My experiences and interpretations will be different than when I am in another mood and I want to take advantage of that and integrate these lessons into my thoughts about myself and the world around me. I don’t want to waste the opportunity to see things from a different angle and from a way more secure and upbeat point of view. I am not going to suppress it with medication.
Saturday’s mail is laying unopened on the dining table. It was late yesterday when I got it out of my mailbox and I excused myself from opening it. Today my excuse is that it is Sunday and that I don’t do any work on the day of rest, as nobody else is doing any either. There is an official looking envelop from the Tax Office and I hardly dare open it. I don’t know what sort of news it will bring me as it’s coming quite unexpected.
I know curiosity will get the better of me and that I will open it later today and deal with whatever is inside. I just hope they don’t want money, because I don’t have any to go around. I am already thinking about not spending the money on the grasses for the pots and the frames for the collages.
I am such a penny pincher, I sit on my money and make every dime last. It’s a sport to only spend a certain amount of money on groceries and tobacco each week and I’m doing great. Last year I was in constant danger of breaking the bank, but I have a completely different attitude now. I guard my money like a mother lioness guards her cubs. Even now when I’m hypomanic. Wild horses can’t drag me to the stores to spend money on clothes and other items that I don’t need. Besides, I’m shrinking into some clothes again.
My glasses? Well, I needed them. I look good and can see well and I wear them from the moment I get up until I go to sleep at night.
I bought a 2 kilo bag of cat food for 2 Euros and the cats like it better than the more expensive Gourmet and Felix cat food. They eat it and ignore what’s in the other dish. Well, they are welcome to. As long as they eat with a good appetite and don’t sit there and mope in front of their dishes I am happy. That’s what they were doing, moping, like, “Do we have to eat this awfully expensive food?”
I also bought some different dried dog food for Jesker, because he also eats that, but just like his other dried food, it’s only partially successful. He eats it with reluctance. Halfheartedly to tie him over until he gets his real food. He looks at me as if to say, “Woman, what have you wrought now?” You see how I have many telepathic dialogs with the animals. Well, it’s silent from their side, I actually talk out loud to them.
Alright then, not because I’m running out of things to say, but because it’s a long enough post, I will end it here. It’s a true pleasure to sit here and just ramble on to my heart’s contend. I could do this all afternoon and start a novelette.
I hope you’re all having a good Sunday and something better than the gray rainy one we’re having here, although personally it doesn’t bother me, there’s something cozy about it.
Ciao…